I hated everything.
I hated my body and the pain it was putting me through. I hated the fact that I felt exhausted all the time. I hated seeing the scars three operations had left me. I hated the fact that I could not hold onto a pregnancy (at this point I had endured three miscarriages). I just could not function right, which left me feeling extremely frustrated.
No longer was I the confident woman who knew what she wanted from life and was determined to get it. In her place was someone who felt anxious about everything and felt I just wasn’t good enough.
I felt like a complete failure and would tell myself this daily.
Eventually, my body could take no more, with frequent and excruciating endometriosis flare-ups, crippling insomnia, terrifying panic attacks, and overwhelming anxiety, I thought I was losing my mind.
I hit rock bottom.
The road back to health has not been easy, but I now recognise and understand the habits that were keeping me in a negative relationship with myself.
Learning to embrace my menstrual cycle, and putting both my physical and mental health first, has been a catalyst in my recovery, allowing me to create healthy lifestyle habits that work for me in my life. I’ve learnt that Self-Kindness is key.
My healing journey has seen me qualify as a Health and Life Coach, gain my ILM level 5 certificate in Coaching and Mentoring and complete a Hormone Specialist certificate.
As women our menstrual cycle and hormonal health play an integral role in our health and wellbeing, so why should we not utilise this power. Likewise, whether we can, can’t or choose not to have children does not define us as women.
If you are fed up of feeling exhausted and at odds with your body, I can support you in feeling like yourself again, through the power of self-kindness.